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My book on feminism in adult film is finished. Pornography Feminism: As Powerful as She Wants to Be" explores the little known connection between the adult film industry and feminism. Hopefully it will encourage other writers to investigate the topic and expand on my introductory historical account. The project stemmed from my efforts to cobble together an understanding of filmed pornography and its influence on American culture. I’m a career educator/historian so this sort of thing is what interests me. By happenstance I discovered a little recognized handful of adult film actresses who banded together in the mid-1980’s to form a mutual support group. They were feminists in nature and I quickly learned that in today’s adult industry feminism among performers and directors is alive and well. In the course of this adventure, I was invited to be a contributing columnist for Adult Industry News, an online publication out of LA. It can be accessed at AINews.com. So, now after years in the classroom, I can say I've attained the status of a professional writer. Over the past few years, my industry contacts have grown and I've expanded my interest in adult film to other areas beyond feminism, most recently the BDSM phenomenon that is invading bedrooms across the world with new sexual experimentation. We'll call it what everyone else does, the "Fifty Shades" phenom. The result is a change in direction for some of the topics found here. Feminism will still reside in its heart, but the fetish touch will step into the light more often now. In fact, because feminist performers are sometimes bondage models, there really isn't the disconnect one would expect. I’m developing the feel of a journalist and a film reviewer, neither of which I thought I'd ever become. Little money (but lots of passion) in what I do, so to pay the bills I maintain my position as an adjunct community college professor teaching in the Washington-Baltimore metro area.

AEE 2019: Cindy Starfall

by Rich Moreland, February 2019

Through Star Factory PR, I had the privilege of  interviewing Cindy Starfall a couple of years ago. Since that time, the Saigon native has received several adult entertainment award nominations and continues to wow her fans with her feature dancing.

Let’s see what’s on her mind this year.

Photos are credited to Kevin Sayers.

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I remember we talked about your feature dancing a couple of years ago. Are you still on the road?

“I do it more and I really loved it because I can really put on a show, on stage and actually get to meet my fans because they come [from] all over . . . different cities . . . for meet and greets.”

Cindy says feature dancing is her thing.

“I love it because it pulls a creative side out of me. I get to be my own boss and put on these big shows on stage every month [in] a different city.”

Cindy comments on her schedule and explains that she’s shooting as much as dancing.

“I dance Thursday, Friday, Saturday. Come back [home on] Sunday then shoot Monday Tuesday. I pack Wednesday and I go again.”

Wow, that’s a lot of traveling, but she seems to love it.

Still Swinging

She tells me that her hectic schedule has put a crimp in her free-flowing lifestyle. Cindy is one of the few porn girls I know who is an active swinger.

“I still have my swinger couples that I’m doing,” Cindy says. In fact, she’s headed over to Japan in April with some of her swinger friends.

We talk about how she handles these out-of-the-ordinary sexual encounters. Among her requirements is spouses have to be present.

“I prefer that because it’s just less drama that way. I’m not there to look for relationships. I just want to be in there and have fun.”

The couples are friendly and, for the most part, older than Cindy. But that is not to discount younger couples who are into the lifestyle. “They always give off this sexual, friendly vibe,” she says.

When she reflects back on her early days in swinging, Cindy recalls it helped her adjust to porn.

“I love sex and swinger [parties have] helped me [to be] more comfortable in front of the camera. Because I have people watching and I have people shooting photos. In a way it [has] shaped who I am.  It is a big part of my life.”

That Connection

We move on to camming. Cindy exclaims that “it’s taking over the [adult] business!”

Camming is a version of amateur porn, she asserts, because “you’re filming yourself at home.”

Cindy has discovered that many of her fans “enjoy that amateur side versus the professional looking, perfect lighting side . . . because it’s more like a private one-on-one, like a personal interaction with me.”

The petite performer indicates that her camming popularity comes from guys who are “lonely” and “looking for that relationship, looking for that connection that they will have with the girls.”

When she describes what she does, Cindy reflects the formula that many cammers use.

“When you cam with me, I will talk to you. I know you by name, I know what you like. You can actually direct your own porn with me. You get to pick what I’m wearing for a session.”

She sees that as powerful for both her and her fans.

Room for Everybody

Some cam girls are comfortable at home and don’t have a desire to become a porn star, Cindy says. “All they do is get online.”

“With porn, you actually got to show up on set, it’s a production. A typical porn set could be between six to eight hours or more if it’s a feature. So, it’s a totally different thing [from camming].

“I started off as a webcam girl. But it wasn’t for me because I got bored. I needed that interaction with that co-star. I love doing porn because I love being in different characters,” she explains.

Unlike other girls I’ve interviewed on this subject, Cindy is blunt with her assessment of what it means to be a porn girl who is committed to studio shooting.

“If you want to be a porn star, can you get naked in front of at least four, five [people and] three different cameras shooting you? Can you do that?”

On the other hand, she says, “With webcam, you’re in your own home comfortable, one camera, you and your boyfriend. Somebody you’re comfortable with.”

Sounds easy, but it’s not because porn girls don’t always want that live feel. “When they know that camera is live and there’s people watching them, they start freaking out. So, it’s totally different,” she asserts.

But Cindy insists that there is room for everybody. “In a way, I do feel like it’s fine to be divided [between camming and porn] because it’s two different audiences.” There enough fans with different tastes to go around.

Trends

On the question of cammers setting their own market trends, Cindy believes they follow rather than lead.

In the adult business, it’s all about the fans. This is the driving force for cammers.

“The audience [is] there and tipping and watching, [buying] tokens. I feel like they [cammers] are following the trend because that’s what the audience wants to see.”

On the other hand, “when it comes to fandoms or fan worship, these guys are following what the girl’s doing.” In that respect, she might be setting her own trend.

But the bottom line will always be the cammers will respond to what the fans want.

“The cam girl’s all about the audience. The audience is giving them their paychecks,” Cindy says.

As for a major production company like John Stagliano’s Evil Angel, Cindy understands he’s doing what he loves because he already has “such a big studio” and consequently sets his own trends.

Once again, we revert back to the power of being online when it comes to camming.

Cindy Starfall says, “In this day with social media, the people that are watching. They want to know you, the actress behind the camera, and that’s what the webcam gives them. They get to talk to me, personally.”

 

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AEE 2019: Christiana Cinn, Part Two

by Rich Moreland, February 2019

We continue our conversation with Star Factory client Christiana Cinn.

Photos are credited to Kevin Sayers.

 

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Marketing

Turning to the business of camming, I’m interested to know if Christiana thinks the online models establish their own market trends. In other words, do they create a demand for their product?

She responds, “The beauty with cam girls is that they’re a niche market. They don’t have to adhere to what society says is a beauty rule. If a girl wants to have purple hair with blue pubic hair, go for it because that’s going to appeal to somebody out there who’s already on their computer looking for someone like her.”

“They (cam models) remind me of characters and dolls, things out of comic books and stories, like fairytales,” Christiana continues. “They can look any way they like and play a character, do a cos-play.”

It’s complete freedom.

“Regular beauty standards do not apply to them, they set the trend of what they want and as long as they have fun doing it, I think it’s great,” she says.

In a way, Christiana is referencing the new generation of porn fans who are young and tech savvy. Cam girls fit the bill for them.

“Think about people who do video games, are online, and spend a lot of their time on the computer. They want an outlet” that camming fulfills, she comments.

For the cam girl and her customer there’s another advantage.

“When you’re camming, you don’t have to face rejection” in an anything goes environment.  She offers an example. If a girl looks like an Avatar, painted blue or whatever, she says, that obviously appeals to some people.

“The possibilities for cam girls are endless and there’s something out there for everyone. There’s a fetish, there’s a taboo. And it’s safe because it’s all from the comfort of her own space. She’s not doing it for free. She’s doing it for business choices and for money because this is making her happy.”

The New Amateur?

If the studios shoot the professional porn girl while the cammer produces her own content, do we think of her as the new amateur porn star?

Christiana is not so sure, or should we say she has a more egalitarian view.

“That’s not a very fair assumption. I don’t feel there should be a divide in the industry because we’re all sex workers. We’re all selling an ideal. Maybe people who are close-minded and even unkind would say there’s two different tiers or three different tiers and we’re not part of the same family.

“But my opinion, we are absolutely a part of the same special group of women. This is what we do.”

At this point, Christiana concedes there is a little difference, however.

“Maybe to be considered an amateur means they haven’t been shot by a professional studio per se. But it doesn’t mean that she can’t do it on her own or do whatever she wants. The amateur style would be like setting up your own camera, your video, your camera phone.”

Can we say a cam girl can create an amateur feel in her shows?

“Yes, because that’s huge right now!”

Before exploring the amateur product, Christiana reminds us of what pays her bills.

“I do porn. People watch me when they want to get off. They want to watch the big production, the role playing, the different costumes.”

On the other hand, what pleases her viewer tastes is different.

“When I watch porn, I literally look at real couples, real people [who] don’t have to look like what society says is beautiful. As long as they’re real people having real orgasms with real intimacy, that’s what I want to see.

“I like watching ‘cause that’s reality, they’re not doing it for anyone but themselves,”  Christiana says.

Safety

Finally, we turn to some specific issues facing porn today.

Christiana is concerned about sex worker safety particularly with the changes in the online advertising sites. “Taking down Backpage and the sex part from Craigslist” is a problem, she says, because it cost sex workers “a lot of their independence.” The result has put them in a “more risky and dangerous place.”

Having said that, Christiana understands the reasoning of the online services. “What they’re trying to do is prevent sex trafficking, but now anything advertising something exploitative is taken off. So, now there’s nothing.

“They really should have focused more on the actual trafficking aspect and where that’s happening” rather “than taking away from everybody. Now what are the girls supposed to do?” she asks.

Butt Pads

Next, I bring up the AVN show’s Code of Conduct. It’s relatively new, but is it necessary?

“It’s good to hold people accountable, make them aware,” Christiana says and relates a personal story.

“For the first AVN I did years ago, I had to wear fake butt pads under my dress because people would pinch and squeeze your ass so much that it turns black and blue. Then what are you gonna do when you shoot tomorrow? Have bruises?

“But this year, people have been really respectful, really sweet. They’re just there to see you, take a picture, thanks for your time. They’re not mauling all over you. They’re not thinking it’s ok because they’ve seen you have sex.”

There’s a bit of humorous irony with the butt pad, though.

“I learned that trick from a girl who worked at Disneyland. She was a Disney princess. So, it’s not just happening here,” Christiana says with a wink and a nod.

Lastly, I mention the #MeToo movement. Has it caused people to be more respectful at the show this year?

“Well, it’s definitely made some changes. It’s brought attention to people who might feel entitled to your body or to touch you because they’re a fan and they paid to get in. Or, they’re with this company so ‘let me touch this’ or ‘do that’ because I’m gonna help you out.

“If that was their evil intention, it’s made them think twice because now we’re looking out for that,” Christiana Cinn says.

“It’s not just a free-for-all. Personally, I don’t mind touching, hugging, kissing or anything like that. But I don’t like being mauled by somebody and I’m struggling to get away. That’s never fun,” she concludes with a laugh.

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AEE 2019: Christiana Cinn, Part One

by Rich Moreland, February 2019

Christiana Cinn is the second installment in a series on Star Factory clients I interviewed at this year’s AVN trade show in Las Vegas.

The Northern California native is bright and straight forward with her opinions . . . an absolute delight!

Photos are credited to Kevin Sayers.

 

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A Playboy Start

A small-town girl, Christiana Cinn grew up in a rural American culture. After high school, she became a hair stylist. But she was not entirely satisfied and opted to use her sexuality to earn some extra money.

“I started go-go dancing, kind of stripping, [but] I hated coming home smelling like cigarettes,” she says with a chuckle.

There was a further downside to being on stage. “I was afraid to be who I was because I did see people from high school walk in [the club].”

To conceal her real self, Christiana says, she performed in wigs. Using the stage name, Jade Jackson, she played safe.

“Nobody recognized me. I had like a different identity,” she explains.

When Playboy called unexpectedly, Christiana thanked her lucky “stylist” stars. But for the publication, her makeup skills were not the order of the day. They wanted her as a model. Never short of an adventurous spirit, she posed and “started web-camming to make more money” to supplement her dancing.

That was the beginning of a new career.

“Playboy Live had a studio in Culver City. I work[ed] out of that studio and it opened a lot of opportunities for me to do music videos and model with well-known photographers.”

A visit to the Playboy Mansion followed by a shoot for Hustler, and Christiana was on her way.

“Posing for Playboy and camming really opened the doors for all of that,” she says. But there are expectations for a career in adult. “Being comfortable naked and photographed and video-taped kind of sets the bar, sets the tone of how it’s going to be.”

Filling up the Space

In her view, what makes a successful cam girl?

Christiana believes there are two important characteristics–personality and consistency–every cammer possesses. To illustrate her point, she asks how interesting can you be talking to yourself because that’s essentially what a cam girl does in front of her computer.

This California girl discovered she had the right set of skills for that.

“I’m an only child, so my best friend sometimes growing up was the mirror and my reflection. I would make funny faces and pose from a really young age. That made me comfortable with my body.”

The success formula is pretty straight forward.

“Being comfortable looking at yourself–and being yourself–is what makes a successful cam girl [while] filling up the space with something a little entertaining, or sexy, or silly, or fun,” Christiana believes.

On the other hand, profiting from camming is not as simple as it seems and this leads us to Christiana’s second characteristic.

“Consistency is really key to being a successful cam girl,” she insists, and reinforces the mantra, “same time, same place.” Unfortunately for her, feature dancing and personal appearances means she is frequently on the road. That is costly for camming.

“Adhering to a specific [online] schedule, especially when I’m in different time zones,” is problematic, Christiana adds.

The Table

I decide to drop my “three-legged stool” question into our conversation because Christiana can provide insights from a dancing perspective.

Is camming a fourth leg to add to shoots, escorting, and dancing?

It is, she proclaims, and reminds us we live in an online age.

“Camming or social media, such as selling your videos online, doing custom videos, doing Snapchat, Only Fans, Money Bits, I Want Clips” are part of the mix.

“Those platforms are designed to put the performer back in power so she’s not relying on a company who has shot her a hundred times.”

Referencing her own professional history, Christiana underlines her point.

“I’ve been on the cover of Penthouse four times, I’ve been all over the world for them. But I can’t count on them to employ me every time I want.”

She is grateful for her career and believes it’s a mistake to minimize porn.

“I care about the industry, I care about the people in it and I care about where it’s going,” Christiana says. That’s important because she believes “the sex industry sets the trend for the rest of the world and the media.”

Wow, that’s a bold proclamation! Christiana explains.

“First of all, when there’s different trends in women and in body image, what’s desirable, what’s new, what’s next. It all starts with pornography, because in porn . . . or the sex industry . . .  [we’re] showing all of our selves, exposing our bodies. The trend of no pubic hair started here with sex workers, people in a sexual image, and the rest of America took suit.”

Christiana believes that when people develop self-images that are attractive and sexual, the porn industry is influential in their decisions.

“They’re looking to us, because every single part of our bodies is there on display. That’s where people gain their inspiration from.”

Christiana demonstrates a kind of basic sexual intuitiveness that very well may have come from her dancing background.

“Our basic human instinct is driven to sex. That’s what it all comes down to. When they say, sex sells, the media and advertising agencies gather that from what we are selling . . . and that’s sex.”

When we return to the three-legged stool and camming, Christiana is blunt.

Camming “is cool, it’s interesting.” But it is also “a physically taxing and demanding job. Just like a lot of jobs in the sex industry.”

But after a moment, she concludes, “You’re right. The stool has four legs now, it’s a table.”

Can we say a porn career has gone from three legs to four?

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In Part Two of our talk with Christiana Cinn, we’ll discuss some of her concerns about the adult industry.

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AEE 2019: Alexis Fawx, Part Two

by Rich Moreland, February 2019

This is the second installment of our interview with MILF porn superstar Alexis Fawx.

Once again we thank Star Factory for Alexis’ time.

All photos are credited to Kevin Sayers.

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Variety

How does Alexis feel about cam talent? Is camming a prep for shooting scenes for studio paychecks?

She starts us off with a little personal history. She cammed early on in her career and wanted to get back into it.

“I was working with Bang Bros, so I took a break from shooting all the time and went into camming full-time.” That gave Alexis the opportunity to go to massage school to supplement her education.

She’s never regretted the move.

“Camming’s great, honestly. If you have the extra time [and] want to make some extra money, you can hop online and start making that money from home. It’s so simple.”

Is the cam girl going to become the new porn girl?

“I think what you’re gonna find is the cam girl is gonna dip into shooting because it is gonna help make her name more [recognizable].” Alexis asserts. “I think it’s a good way to get your name out there.”

The popular MILF model talks about her personal situation.

My “private Snapchats and Only Fans,” Alexis says, represent “the wide range of my hustle as a performer, I could make money in so many directions I don’t even have to step my foot on set anymore [and] I love being on set, so don’t get me wrong.”

She brings up what most cam girls will tell you, it’s all about content.

“We’re producing our own content. We’re producing our own Only Fans, our Snapchats, ManyVids and stuff like that.” Alexis reminds us that “all the different cam sites” are available to every girl.

“It’s all related. If you are a performer or a cam girl or anything like that, you should definitely be cross-referencing everything. Having that variety is great.”

Producer and Performer

On the other hand, Alexis warns against putting all those proverbial eggs into one basket, particularly when it comes to social media, a cammer’s life blood. Citing Instagram as an example, Alexis points out that they can block you “and poof it’s gone, you lost your business. You’re off the face of the earth.”

Like any good money manager, Alexis insists on diversification when it comes to online offerings.

Incidentally, making it all work is to a girl’s advantage.

“Doing camming is teaching you how to be a producer [and] that makes you an even better performer.”

Of course, cam girls are communicating with the fans directly and in Alexis’s view, this has benefits for the studios.

“I always tell the producers and directors, look for the cam models, because they’re used to dirty talking and looking into the camera and pretending they’re getting a response back. They’re used to improvisation by themselves.”

The Amateur Stuff

I mention that camming and homemade porn seem to be inseparable. Alexis believes this is a good thing.

“Homemade porn is on the comeback now with private Snapchats and Only Fans. I sit at my house and do content all day. I get online and ask my fans what do you guys wanna see?”

For the most part, she works alone.

That is empowering, actually, and not difficult.

“You just do a bunch of those little videos, you throw it up there. You’re making money left and right.”

In the end, it comes down to the basics. “When you think of it, we’re all shooting our own content,” she says.

If that is true, then is the cam girl an updated version of amateur porn.

Alexis lights up with certainty at the question.

“Yeah! Way more because people are doing boy-girls and girl-girls. What amateur porn does is it gives the average person [the fan] a connection. And so, if people can connect, you can have a sale.”

Finally, I ask about the three-legged-stool of porn and is camming the fourth leg?

Alexis thinks so . . .

“You have shoots, escorting, feature dancing, [and] camming.”

Then she expands the possibilities by including “our private sites and our producing” into the income mix.

And don’t forget to think about convenience . . .

“I mean even some cam sites now are mobile, or can stream from your phone. If you can be mobile, you’re gonna be in everyone’s hand.”

“So, I think you probably have about five legs [on that stool].”

She’s nailed it, I think, and concludes with a positive note that defines the personality of Alexis Fawx.

“Rather than just looking at myself as a pornographer, I look at myself as a brand, a business. I mean turn your passions into businesses [that work] for you.”

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AEE 2019: Alexis Fawx, Part One

by Rich Moreland, February 2019

This is the first in a series of interviews from the 2019 Adult Entertainment Expo in Las Vegas.

My thanks to Tanya Tate’s Star Factory PR for scheduling their clients with us. All photos are by Kevin Sayers.

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Before every interview I do, there is small talk. While videographer Davyana San Migel and photographer Kevin Sayers were setting up in the press room for our interview with Alexis Fawx, I mentioned flying in from the Washington DC area for the show.

Unexpectedly, Alexis and I discovered we were practically neighbors because Alexis grew up near my home on the Maryland side of the District. She reminisced about playing on the hillsides as a kid and enjoying the laid back life of her rural roots.

It was a great start for a terrific interview.

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First, let’s begin with an overused phrase, but one that is most appropriate. Alexis Fawx is a woman who knows what she wants and has a blast accomplishing it in every phase of her life.

The over-thirty superstar comes equipped with a dynamic personality and a world view that is inviting and invigorating. Armed with an intelligence that empowers her career, Alexis’s confidence and electric energy have served her well in her five years in adult entertainment.

Working Together

Raised in “a small middle-class family,” Alexis didn’t have a long-term plan of what she wanted to do. Nevertheless, she did get a formal education highlighted by a degree in psychology. Anatomy was her specialty.

“I love how the mind and body work together,” she says, because “that is about life.”

Later when Alexis moved to Florida, that mind-body thing stayed with her. She became “a licensed massage therapist,” she states, with a reminder that “massage is all about that mind and body connection.”

No doubt it has benefited her in porn. When working with her “co-stars” Alexis is “able to be in tune with” bodies and reactions when shooting. It “all transcends together,” she states.

Her professional career has not always been rewarding, however. Alexis worked as a paralegal but found it wanting.

“It was so structured, it was really making me unhappy. I think some people need that structure and they thrive really well. I’m not one of those people. I’m really creative. So, I need that space to do it.”

The popular MILF performer goes on to say that her adult career is a perfect fit for her.

“It has empowered me as a woman” Alexis adds with a smile. “I love what I do. I’m just taking my passions and really enjoying life.”

Five Years in Adult

Nommed for ANV’s MILF Performer of the Year, Alexis elaborates on where she is in her career.

“I have a comedy show that I produce and host. I’m coming out with my own coffee beans. I’m able to take my passions and things that I really truly love and turn them into a money making machine.”

Of course, add to that shooting scenes and camming. This is a busy woman!

Yet Alexis uses her self-awareness–nurtured by spending time alone–to energize her life.

“If you’re always working on your inner self, the things around you become better. If you’re healing the inside of you . . .  then you’re healing people because you’re approaching things in a totally different way.”

Alexis goes on to talk about the destructiveness of anxiety and how best to tackle it to strengthen “your state of mind.” For her the key is to recognize if the situation causing anxiety is even “real.”

“We sometimes just worry about shit that doesn’t even exist. If it’s not real then stop worrying about it because it doesn’t matter.”

Boy, if it were only that easy.

A Career Start

After she served in the military, Alexis lived in South Florida, as we mentioned, where she worked “around the clock [for] somebody else’s dream.”

After quitting a job she considered to be a dead end, Alexis checked out Craigslist for a way to supplement her income and the rest is history, as they say.

She explains.

“They had an ad to be an extra for Dancing Bear. It happened to be the same studio as Bang Bros.”

When she showed  up, she says, “they gave me a laundry list of things to make more money if you wanted to do it. Got to blowjob [and] I raised my hand without even thinking.”

They offered her the scene and she decided to go after it.

“I was like ‘I guess I’m gonna give a blowjob on camera. Okay I better do my best!’” she laughs.

There is an Alexis Fawx lesson here. We’ll let her nail it for you.

“If you start just saying ‘yes’ to opportunities, it really opens up a lot of doors. If I never said ‘yes’ to that opportunity right there, I wouldn’t be sitting here today.”

The Red-Headed Stepchild

Bearing in mind that Alexis remains a girl-girl contract star with Mile High Media (she has her first girl-girl showcase with them coming soon), I’m interested to know her feelings about crossing over into mainstream film. Is it possible for porn people to make it in Hollywood?

“I think there’s a lot of stigma that we’re still gonna have to get through,” she begins. But times are changing. “More people talk about it, people are more open about it,” but “I think there’s still a lot to work to do.”

For Alexis, the stigma, though unfortunately relevant, is insulting.

“Until we’re not the red-headed stepchild anymore and really taken seriously,” progress is going to be slow, she implies. But her upbeat attitude never gives up. Alexis looks forward to the day when people look past the denigrating porn trope of “just spread your legs, how do you dare have a brain?’”

To make matters more annoying, the prejudice goes beyond the studios. “Right now, not even mainstream actors take us seriously,” she says.

“We have some phenomenal actors in the industry because there are people with talent that get overshadowed because this (porn) is their life. [It’s] how they make their money so their singing or dancing, or whatever the fuck it may be, gets overshadowed.”

Sometimes all that is needed is someone to take notice. Alexis references her comedy show when she says,

“Maybe they (porn performers) don’t have the avenue, maybe they can’t get on stage.”  But she’ll offer them the opportunity.

“Hey, come, reach out to me, I’ll put you on stage,” she says, all smiles.

Best of all, her show is in Hollywood.

“You never know who’s sitting in the audience,” Alexis Fawx comments, “you never know who’s gonna be walking around that day and decide to come to my show and be sitting in there and be like ‘Oh wow, this person has a great voice, I wanna connect with them.’”

It’s all about faith and opportunity, just like the mind-body connection insists.

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In Part Two of our conversation with Alexis Fawx, we’ll take a look at her views on camming.

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AEE 2019: AINews Reports from the Show, Part Two

by Rich Moreland, February 2019

This post is a brief visit to the Novelty Expo that was a part of the larger adult trade show in Las Vegas. Before we begin, a disclaimer is in order.

Neither I nor my cohorts—photographer Kevin Sayers and videographer Davyana San Miguel—were offered any compensation by any manufacturer for the photos in this article. We just wandered around and observed, enjoying everything we encountered.

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Passing through the crowded and noisy rooms connected with the on-screen part of the Adult Entertainment Expo and into the AVN Novelty Expo is akin to moving from a frat party to an executive suite.

‘Tis a pity, too, considering most fans never make it this far. Without porn stars ready for conversation and a signed photo or cammers with their computers, the atmosphere immediately loses some of its appeal.

Nevertheless, you never know who you might find hanging around. Maybe a superstar like Manuel Farrara.

There is certainly a lot of room to walk around and greet vendors, look at products, and ask for demonstrations.

What is trending this year are sex dolls, a rising product in adult at-home entertainment. Of course, some are caricatures (avatars?) that look like they came out of a Pure Taboo film.

But realism is making headway in manufacturing these days giving the dolls a natural appearance that at first is deceiving when seen from a brief distance. Up close a truer picture comes into focus but for the purchaser, the “feel” is as good as ever, or so I’m told.

Don’t get too carried away, though.  Never forget that the dolls are inanimate which means some customers may only want the more intimate parts!

Requires a little imagination, I think.

Apparel also plays a big part in the novelties show, especially for women.

Thigh highs are always in demand . . .

. . . Then there is Thighbrush!

Umm? Wonder what that could be? Oh, it’s designed to appeal to the man with a beard and the lady he loves! Sorta gets her in the mood.

The fetish crowd always loves to see their paraphernalia on display. The kinky sort might pick up a little something to take home. Maybe replace those worn out wrist restraints.

Gotta make those sexy BDSM connections that will light up her night!

Toy vendors improve their products every year and it’s evident that manufacturing has come a long (no pun intended) way.

Attracting the female customer is a major thrust (oops! another pun apology!) in the industry these days.

Of course, women are approached with exquisite promises that just the right outfit brings the joy of sex! If that doesn’t work for the lady . . . .

. . . She can create her own solo excitement in a very private moment.

I was going to leave the next one out, but mechanization is a part of the adult industry and the pleasure it provides. So, those of you who are prudish please look the other way!

To be honest, motorbunny was not in the novelty room, but I threw this in anyway to let you know “personal items” could be found in other parts of the show.

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Before we leave the novelties, Kevin snapped the perfect picture to describe the dilemma the adult industry faces everyday.

Sometimes selling a sexy good time has its quiet moments . . .

Thanks Hard Rock for hosting the show!

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Elements: Misha Cross and Art

by Rich Moreland, February 2019

This post on Evil Angel’s Elements is more analysis than review. My congratulations to Misha Cross for directing an outstanding adult film that has a definitive European flavor. It is a delight for the eyes.

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Evil Angel is gonzo at its best. Its directors have a reputation for the hard edge, creating graphic scenes spiced with female hotness that defines a porn genre.

Misha Cross’s Elements lifts this shooting philosophy to new heights. Capturing four scenes through a lens that focuses on earth, wind, fire, and water, Misha’s artistic vision puts the grace of movement and the intensity of raw sex to the test. The result is porn that never forgets its erotic legacy.

The sex scenes feature female pulchritude at its finest. The talents of Cherry Kiss, Tina Kay, Anna De Ville, and Misha herself for the down and dirty are remarkable. We will talk about that in a moment.

But first, we should admire the tease that begins each shoot. It’s porn competing with art.

Beautiful Cinematography

The film’s initial scene with Misha is open fields, horses, and blue skies. Doesn’t every little girl dream of a pony? By the time the kid reaches adulthood, her desires become Freudian and a horse’s “size” is often joked about.

Want proof? Notice how lovingly Misha caresses the horse that plays the scene with her. When the ponies run in the background and Misha waves her sparklers (think Freudian climax here), the sex scene to come could not have a better introduction.

Like Misha’s tease, Cherry Kiss also involves motion captured with beautiful cinematography in hers. She’s on desert terrain in a white gown and diamond jewelry embedded in a body harness with necklace and forehead decoration. Watch for the line of blazing fire on the sand that concludes the scene. Hot in the loins? No doubt.

When it comes to Tina Kay’s turn, a sweeping shot of the ocean leads the viewer to a lagoon where she wades in the water. Misha Cross has a penchant for white in these teaser scenes. Pale fabric that highlights each girl’s nude image leads the viewer to the white room for the sex that becomes an extension of the director’s art. Freud’s love of water and the womb reborn.

Anna De Ville’s final scene changes the game a bit. She’s an acrobat, swinging and weaving on a suspended hoop that is more characteristic of a Vegas floor show than a porn film. But it works beautifully. No open and flowing gown here, Anna is in a body suit and stripper heels.

Camera angles play with her movement. With legs wrapped around the ring, Anna floats and rotates. It’s a dreamlike vision that undulates with the industrial music that frames it.

Freud would be proud.

Oral and Anal Experts

Each of the sex scenes responds to its tease setup.

Most of the penetrations are anal, but vaginal is not ignored. The third scene featuring Tina Kay is the most extreme. For the viewer who enjoys a little fun with slaps, spanks, gagging, nose pinching, and the like, it’s a must see. There is even a brief head dunking in a bathtub (remember water is the theme of this scene) to flavor the action. Tina smiles through it all.

All of the scenes run through the formulaic porn positions—mish, doggie, cowgirl, reverse cowgirl, and spoon. The girls wear heels which ratchets up the slut value of each shoot. For bush aficionados, there isn’t much here to admire, however. On the other hand, if you’re a fan of the clean-shaven, then you’ve got a lot to look at. Yes, Misha has a just a touch of hair and Cherry has a modified landing strip, but Tina and Anna have gone totally bald.

Overall, pretty sexy stuff I’d have to say. The girls are oral and anal experts (this is Evil Angel, after all) with bodies to die for. Of course, some variety of the facial rules the end of each shoot; that should be no surprise. Having said that, watch for an interesting deviation when Emilo Ardana pops for Anna!

AVN Honored

Elements is a foreign production shot in Germany and Spain by a director who is a native of Poland. From my personal experience with European adult film, folks across the pond know how to turn the porn shoot into elegance personified with cinematography that sometimes surpasses its American cousin.

As an actress, Misha Cross received major noms in several categories at this year’s AVN Awards including foreign female performer of the year (which she has won twice, by the way). Her nom for best solo-tease performance in Misha in Exile stands out as the finest in its category, at least in my opinion. It is spectacular and she’s carried that talent over to Elements.

Dan Miller of AVN reports that “with nature as the backdrop, Cross set out to accentuate the beauty and strength of her female subjects in Elements without skimping on the hardcore.”

AVN’s managing editor also adds that Misha sees her art as a combination of hardcore and erotica. I could not agree more. But that’s not the whole story. Misha’s compadre Samantha Bentley worked with her on the soundtrack to give the entire film a music video feel.

By the way, don’t skip the BTS in this film. My kudos to Misha Cross for her social statement with her August Ames t-shirt. Further praise is due the Polish filmmaker for demonstrating what is more evident in porn everyday: industry directors and videographers can produce a mainstream quality product. The porn world is leaving its underground roots and moving closer to Hollywood.

A note to viewers. In order of appearance, the male performers in Elements are: Ramon Nomar, Erik Everhard, Chris Diamond, and Emilo Ardano.

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AEE 2019: AINews Reports from the Show, Part 1

by Rich Moreland, February 2019

This is the first of two installments highlighting the 2019 Adult Entertainment Expo (aka the AVN Show) in Las Vegas. Our team circulated on the floors of the hosting venue, the Hard Rock Hotel, networked where we could, and conducted interviews to get an in-depth look at the porn industry today.

So far, we’ve reported on Evil Angel’s thirtieth anniversary and Nina Hartley’s thirty-fifth. We’ve also taken a look at how the show reflected the changes in our culture.

A pair of talented visual artists, still photographer Kevin Sayers and videographer/filmmaker Davyana San Miguel, provided the visual energy that graces these articles.

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Is there love between AVN and the cam world?

 If the last few years at the Adult Entertainment Expo is any indication, the porn world is experiencing an internal evolution.

That’s right, things are changing because the new kid on the block—the cam girl (and boy)—is altering the landscape of what defines porn, at least the commercialized version.

First, a little in-house geography. For those of you who have never visited the Hard Rock Hotel, the “floor” is divided among four major venues, three devoted to the on-screen industry and one to novelties.

A walk around the environs reveals that cammers are more evident than ever before. Not only do they have their own booths and tables inside the show rooms, they dominate the hallways that connect them.

That raises interesting questions. Are cam girls the newest version of porn girls?

Do cammers believe they are creating pornographic content when they perform for their fans and sell their shoots online? If that seems obvious to you, it isn’t to everyone and “therein lies the rub.” (my apologies for the well-worn misquote of Shakespeare)

Are cammers open to shooting for studios in a scripted environment?  It’s certainly outside their comfort zone where they interact with fans unencumbered by directors, cinematographers, and their crews.

And, how do the established porn stars—the studio moneymakers—regard cammers? Do the stars also cam as a way to build their brand?

In the interviews we did for Adult Industry News, I posed these questions. Answers varied, as you might expect, and we will look at some of them in later posts.

For now, here’s what we encountered during our meanderings about the premises.

Something for Everyone

The cammers greet fans in the hallways . . .

. . . And in the rooms! They seem to be everywhere armed with their connection to the fan world: their computer.

Cammers are not restricted by agents, you see. As a result, they are on their own to mix and mingle.

As a contrast, let’s take a few snapshots of porn’s traditional studios and the well-known stables that supply the talent.

The Agency Booths

We stop at the booths of a couple of modeling agencies I’ve dealt with in the past. At Foxxx Modeling, a brief chat with some girls we’ve already interviewed kicks off the afternoon.

The sexy Scarlett Mae.

The sultry Emma Hix.

And the perky BDSMer Emori Pleezer.

Nearby over at John Stevens’ Matrix Models, we find one of my favs in the biz, Vanna Bardot. Kevin and I met her recently on a Girlfriends Films shoot.

Porn’s Commercial Tradition

Then it’s on to the studios, the heavy hitters of porn. First is Adult Time, Bree Mills’ venue where . . .

. . . I renew old acquaintances with three of porn superstars, all of whom are up for AVN awards. We set up interviews to explore new topics we’ve not talked about before.

Tommy Pistol, one of adult’s finest male actors.

The popular Derrick Pierce whose on-screen personality is in high demand.

Then we have the talented Casey Calvert, a longtime friend. (It’s generational with our schedule making, as you can see. She’s electronic, I’m old school with my pen as we discuss arrangements!)

And a new contact, the luscious and award-winning Kenna James who later gives our team a terrific interview!

And, of course, Bree is there. We had interviewed her earlier in the day.

Other stops include Evil Angel where Katrina Jade is signing for fans.

And Jules Jordan where we pause a few moments with model Emily Willis.

Moving on to Greg Lansky Media, a rip-roaring booth pulsing with club music that engulfed the hall, we pick up a couple of conversations there.

We didn’t forget to take a quick look at the AVN booth (it’s their show, after all!) where a variety of girls were signing each day.

After some searching, we finally locate Sofie Marie, a girl (or MILF, depending on your point of view) who shoots for studios AND maintains her cam site. Later she gives us a terrific interview.

Before wrapping up our mini-tour of the rooms, we visit The Lair.

It’s sponsored by Kink.com, the leading BDSM porn producer in the business. Since the fan has to go upstairs to see the The Lair, there is the undeniable connection to Kink’s popular website, The Upper Floor.

And, as is the habit at AEE, an after-hours party for fans who want to pay for the privilege is offered.

Mostly, The Lair is a quiet respite from the clamor of the show floors. It’s vendors mostly with a demonstration here and there. For BDSM enthusiasts, it’s somewhat of a letdown unless the fan wants to shop .

Veterans

For anyone who writes in the porn biz, there is the “go-to” interviewer (and this is not to diminish any writer presently working). By “go-to” I mean the guy who sets the table for the basics about a performer. In other words, bio facts, personal preferences, shooting history, and the like. Everything that helps a girl build her fan base and gets the rest of us thinking about what we want to ask her.

He is “Captain Jack” and I have the privilege of meeting him after all these years.

Speaking of those in the industry who’ve been around the block a few times, our team briefly greets Evan Stone and has a short talk with Katie Morgan. No interviews this time around due to time and the hectic pace of the show. Maybe next year.

Then there is a new face and an old friend. For the first time, I make the acquaintance of Prinzzess Felicity Jade, a Girlfriends Films superstar, and update personal news with now retired performer, Daisy Layne.

Blended or Separated?

So, where does our brief tour leave us? For sure, the line between camming and shooting scenes is blurred. Take shooting, for example.

Today, the trend is make your own. Everyone, porn vets and cammers, can produce and manage their own content. After all, that’s what the fan wants . . . easy access just a click away.

There’s an old standby, Clips4Sale . . .

. . . And a newbie in the mix, Iwantclips.

At a convention that for decades touted video tapes and performer meet-and-greets, today cammers and studios play side-by-side. With Greg Lansky’s Vixen, Tushy, and Blacked responding to fans on the left of the picture below while the cammers’ ManyVids draws a crowd on the right, what does that tell us about 2019?

Well, maybe a solid “spank” in between to get our attention about a changing industry!

Peaceful Co-Existence?

In our next post, we’ll move to the novelties part of AEE 2019.

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Sexual Harassment: Old Hollywood and Modern Porn

by Rich Moreland, February 2019

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Sexual Harassment is a Hard Art production starring a bevy of porn performers with Niki Snow, Robby Echo, and James Bartholet playing pivotal roles.

Directed by Sally Forth and co-directed by Jake Jacobs, the film features a musical score by Archie Brunswick. Misty Stone’s voice graces the theme song.

The premise of the story is a long-standing Hollywood trope. Lucille Le Seur, played by Niki Snow, leaves her Iowa hometown to venture westward for a career in film. Once she arrives in Tinseltown, roles are hard to come by, as we  might expect. To pay the rent Lucille turns to the easy money (if there is such a thing) offered by filmed sex. From there the story moves into a commentary on the #MeToo Movement.

Overall, the narrative is well-paced with a comedic touch to keep the viewer engaged. In other words, there is never a dull moment.

The Old Days

Much of Sexual Harassment is as throwback to the old days of porn when good shooting was at a minimum. For example, during sex scenes the verbal soundtrack of grunts, moans, and sighs was often out of sync with the lip movements of the performers. And don’t forget the cheesy background music that seemed an afterthought to the action on-screen.

Both were frequently looped (repeated) as the sex progressed. Needless to say, it was all very amateurish and not at all a problem. Porn in those days was hardly Hollywood.

And, there is more. The cinematographer’s lens concentrated on closeups of the penetration shots as if every shoot was a gynecological or oral exam. The camera was remiss in framing bodies equally on-screen, a direct contrast to modern directors who prefer to show the sex as human interaction. The result? Gonzo techniques, often attributed to Evil Angel’s John Stagliano, took over the industry.

Director Sally Forth is well aware of these shortcomings and cultivates the old days with humor. By the way, she throws in the “no-no” of modern porn during the film’s second sex scene. Claudia Fox reminds us of the past when she glances at the camera while doing her oral duty.

It’s worth a comment that Sexual Harassment’s fifth sex scene highlights the journey porn shooters have taken into modern times. It’s a three-way between Allessa Von Camp, Brad Sterling, and Niki Snow who walks into the boy/girl action as the French Maid, another old porn trope. The bodies are shown in their entirety with an emphasis on pleasure. This is the best carnal scene of the film.

There’s More

Sexual Harassment mixes its porn time periods with tongue (yes, just tongue) firmly planted in cheek. When Lucille is looking for work, she picks up a newspaper similar to the still-in-print LA Xpress. Also, a cordless phone circa last century graces a couple of scenes to remind the viewers that we’re visiting the past.

But modernity is always close at hand. By the time Forth’s narrative reaches its final act, LCD computer monitors appear in Herb Weinsteins’ Hollywood offices. Technology, like the porn act, has been updated.

Oh yes, a couple of things to spice up the viewer’s interest need mentioning. After she makes her mark in porn, Lucille drops in an adult book store and sorts through DVDs of her movies. The DVD came out in the late 1990s and it’s a good bet that had old video tape box covers been available for the scene, they would have found a place in the director’s heart.

Also, when a cross over opportunity knocks for Lucille, she takes a shot at B picture fame in another Hollywood stereotype, the horror-gore flick. We get a quick glance at the feature performer, the “Chainsaw Man,” who cuts his way through his cameo moment wearing a mask.

There’s some history there that dates to the second year of the Porno Chic era when the Bryanston Production Company distributed The Texas Chainsaw Massacre. The company ran into trouble when its producer, mobster Anthony Peraino, faced obscenity charges resulting from his involvement with Deep Throat, the film that began the modern adult industry in 1972.

Of course, the mask concept recalls another old stereotype that shows up the stags of yore when men donned only in black socks concealed their identities.

Give Some Head

As the film winds down, Lucille makes an impression on Hollywood mogul, Herb Weinstein (played by James Bartholet who, by the way, is Sexual Harassment’s executive producer).

Lucille’s encounter is set up by Herb’s “interview” with a new intern (Destiny Love). Yielding to Herb’s insistence, she hears, “If you want to get ahead, you have to give some head . . . suck like your career depends on it.” Not exactly original dialogue, but it fills the bill nicely. Herb pops on a photo of Lucille who is next on his harassment list while an ignored Destiny quickly vacates the room.

As you might expect, Sexual Harassment has a Harvey Weinstein ending. From that perspective, Sally Forth’s production is imbued with strong female empowerment. In fact, Lucille is in control of her career from the very start and that in itself is a welcome update on Porn Valley’s checkered past. To underscore her point, director Forth can’t resist throwing in Lucille’s snarky indictment of “Mr. Limp Dick” who can’t get it up for their scene. Oh, those pre-Viagara days!

All Over Your Body

There is an abundance of sex scenes in Sexual Harassment that feature the following performers: Jesse Bunyan, Claudia Fox, Black Ken, Robby Echo, Payton St Clair, Jay Crew, Jayde Symz, Chad White, Vanessa Cage, an uncredited female performer, and the already mentioned Niki Snow, Allessa Von Camp, Brad Sterling, and Destiny Love.

Pay close attention to the abrupt ending of Chad and Jayde’s scene. It’s a nod to rising adult writer and director, Bree Mills of Pure Taboo fame.

There is much to love about Sexual Harassment. It is cleverly written and sharply filmed. For example, when Lucille shows up for her test stills early in the story. The photographer Bernie Hyman (maybe hymen with an “e” is more accurate because Lucille, who is no virgin, is being primed for the porn camera and has to be initiated into sex for pay) is played by AINews managing editor Steve Nelson.

Steve is skilled with the camera and it shows in the scene. He offers up an amusing line when he pulls down her top to free her boobs and lifts her skirt for the treasures “down there.” Lucille is caught off guard. To ease her mood, Steve says with a chuckle, “skin’s good, skin’s good . . . it’s all over your body.”

And at film’s end, Herb’s mug shots will stand in vivid contrast to Lucille’s test photos in this scene.

Like in the old Hollywood production  A Star is Born, Lucille’s name will be dropped in favor of something a bit catchier. “Helen Bedd” becomes her stage moniker and another kind of “star” is popularized.

Ray

There is also a love element in Sexual Harassment. Robby Echo plays Ray, a writer and Lucille’s newly found off-camera romance. Their sex scene is sweet and make no mistake, Niki Snow is easy on the eyes. At one point Ray says, “We’re both trying to become something.” That something is unclear, but their satisfaction is heightened when they later see the #Metoo images on TV that reinforce Herb’s arrest.

There are other characters in this film that are worth a look. There is Lucille’s caustic female agent, the cleanup crew who takes a moment out of their task to have a jolly encounter, Herb’s obese secretary, and Donnie Rock’s cameo as a film editor.

In fact, for an adult film there are perhaps too many personalities on-screen because the viewer never gets to know any of them well.

Who is Lucille?

For the porn fan who might miss the film’s ingenious nod to cinema history, allow me to fill you in.

Writer/director Sally Forth pulls off a coup with Lucille Le Seur. You see, in the 1920s in old Hollywood a young woman by that name became a star in silent film and moved into talkies with aplomb. Eventually, she became a Hollywood legend, winning an Oscar in 1947.

But the rumor persisted (and still does today) that this real-life Lucille shot stags, the earliest of porn films. Nothing was ever verified, no films ever emerged, but the story always hung over her. By the way, Lucille’s sleeping around with both men and women honed her reputation for a prolific sexual appetite among the Hollywood crowd. Thus, she was “hell in bed,” just as Sally Forth tells us with her version of Lucille.

So, what was the stage name for this real-life Hollywood icon? Joan Crawford.

A Final Word

Bright, sassy, and whimsical, Sally Forth is a quality filmmaker whose sense of movie history permeates Sexual Harassment. I’m certain her future work will be equally as engaging.

There is one thing, however.

The good folks at Hard Art have got to clean up their print editing. The cast is overly large and this may have led to occasional sloppiness regarding proper documentation. Some names are misspelled on the box cover while other names are left out entirely, particularly an uncredited female performer who gives her all in her sex scene. Remember that directors, cinematographers, and performers consider adult film to be their art. Let’s not short change them.

That said, I highly recommend Sexual Harassment, a film that shows us how we got from there to here in a business that is often vilified and dismissed as culturally irrelevant.

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AEE 2019: The Realities of an Adult Trade Show

by Rich Moreland, February 2019

Photos provided by AINews and Kevin Sayres.

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This year’s Adult Entertainment Expo marked two anniversaries which I’ve celebrated in previous posts: Evil Angel’s thirtieth year of operation and a salute to the great porn legend, Nina Hartley.

While there were upbeat moments of the positive in today’s industry, there were also reminders that we are in a time when porn reflects the greater issues facing our society. The first day on the floor of the show illustrates what I mean.

Security

Let’s begin with the metal detectors. For me, getting to Las Vegas requires flying and airports mean security checks. I’m thankful for the capable TSA employees who check every passenger and bag that boards a plane.

Likewise, the trade show is not immune from checking and rechecking and clearing everyone who wants to get in. Considering that a handful of states, most recently Arizona, have proposed legislation to declare porn a public health hazard, it would be no surprise that an anti-porn crazy might attempt sneak a device into the trade show and harm attendees.

Nevada does have an open carry law, by the way, but requires permits for concealed weapons and many fans (and industry personnel, yours truly included) do carry backpacks and tote bags into the show.

So, like the airport TSA, I commend the Hard Rock Hotel and AVN for taking defensive measures.

The Code

When I arrived at the press room to pick up my media pass, I was presented with the Code of Conduct. The Code was displayed at the entrance to the show and on the Table of Contents page of the show directory, a freebie for all fans and industry people.

In light of the #Metoo movement, it makes sense to recognize issues of proper conduct. Because performers are in the business of sexual entertainment, too many fans “assume” they are meeting a “different kind of girl” than the sweetheart or wife back home.

In fact, I remember a few years ago when I interviewed a prominent star, she reminded me that “no touching” was her personal rule with fans. She even came with her personal bodyguard.

Though not all performers are that sensitive to physical contact, bullying is another matter. I’ve witnessed girls politely deal with “insistent” fans who believe it’s okay to cross boundaries.

(A caveat is due here. Those types of fans are few. The vast majority are respectful and delighted to meet the stars. In turn, porn models are happy to provide the fan with a pleasurable experience.)

For its part, AVN explains that the Code represents “common-sense rules for public behavior and personal interaction” that applies “to EVERYONE at the convention” including those connected with the industry.

I agree and am happy to commend AVN on this.

August Ames

Sadly, there was a poignant reminder this year of the consequences of cyber bullying. The December 2017 suicide of August Ames still reverberates throughout the industry. A t-shirt honoring the twenty-three-year-old was in evidence among a handful of attendees.

My friend and colleague Steve Nelson, editor of Adult Industry News, had this to say about the circumstances that led to August’s death.

“August Ames was a good friend. She was always kind to me and very happy. Or so I thought. We all found out too late that she was dealing with the demons of depression.”

Among his other duties, Steve drives for modeling agencies. That’s how he got to know August. But like so many others, he didn’t see what was coming.

“I only saw her upbeat side. She hid her demons well.”

When the end shocked everyone, Steve reflected what others in porn expressed. “I regret not reaching out to her . . . She was on the edge and bullies on Twitter pushed her over.”

It is notable that in this year’s AVN balloting, a scene in which August Ames appeared was nommed for an award. Considering the overwhelming number of categories and scenes, a small honor perhaps, but not insignificant.

We should heed the lessons of August Ames’ passing and take a moment to treat each other with a bit more love and understanding.

In looking forward to AEE 2020,  we hope for the day when security measures, a code of conduct, and the tragedy of suicide are memories of past shows and not permanent realities.

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